Wai!!!!! I luv everyone!!! Oh, Lil. my mom was wondering if we could buy some Euro from you (within reason, "coins and small denominations only please!!" a voice comes from the peanut gallery), she wants to have a little part of history, besides she thinks its neat!!! Are you going to be back in time for AYO on Monday, and if so are you going? That way I can tell Mr. Ed.

I'm listening to the solo I'm playing for UIL and was listening to the quartet I'm going to play...*sigh* I am horribly inadequate, the quartet is actually quite hard, nice but hard.

Neko yes!! TSO is cool, you'd probably like Mannheim Steamroller also, we (mom and I) were listing to them last night. Mom's known about them forever and I've been listing to them for..awhile...*counts on fingers and toes* well, you get the point!!! I would marry you also, but in that weird somehow way I am sort of but not really related to you *blinkblink*

*grnk* um....Neko...we go back to school on Tuesday...not Monday. *shudder* I would hate to go back on monday, it would ruin the game I am playing with myself "How long can I put off writing my last college essay?" Hurray procrastination!!!

Buddy, former Pres. Clinton's chocolate lab, got hit by a car today while running after a visitor to Mr. Clinton's upper New York house. A moment of silence please........mom did point out though that hundreds of children die each day from starvation, famon, and war and what is the first item on the news? He was a good dog...

I am having much fun at the moment taking quizzes. I randomly decided to choose a pita link on Tomo's page and this girl's pita and she has a lot of neat quizzes. I don't know you but I like you!!!! As a result I am now a member of Emode.



My inner RockStar is Britney Spears. *bleah* I'm slightly frightened about that one "...both girl next door and sex kitten...envy of all cheerleaders..." *picks self up off floor*

My aura color is violet. This one actually fits me *happy*

My superpower is time travel. *dotdotdot*

My ideal anime man is Kiryuu Touga from Shoujo Kakumei Utena. *sigh* who???!!!! *hehehe* Nakago is number 3 for me

My ideal bishounen is
# 1 Himura Kenshin
# 2 Chichiri
# 3 Ranma
# 4 Rekka
# 5 Ryouga
# 6 Tamahome
# 7 Trunks
# 8 Inu-Yasha
*sigh* I guess I can deal with that...but Chichiri is soooo young!!!

My Sailor Moon character is Rei. No...no...no, I never liked her that much...*sigh*

My Eva. character is Misato!!!! *jumps out of chair for joy* Happy!!! She's my role model!!! and Pen-Pen of course!!

My X character is Nataku. That's okay, I wanted Arashi (no, not because of the band..silly people) but she's no.8 for me.

I'm a lazy bum and don't feel like typing in all the links for these, most of them are at here . I just drew a dancer and a mermaid *content*...

Weeeeee!!! The house smells like lysol and bleach..*contented sigh*. Cleaning relaxes me...unless it's washing dishes..very stressful. I love the smell of bleach, so clean and fresh, comet is even better but we don't have any *sigh*....I played with photo shop last night, well technically it was print shop and photo pro, but its still really good. I found myself inspired by...shoot...my modem's being wierd, it's making funny noises, really funny noises...better, reconnected. Anyways, I was inspired by Notre Dame de Paris and Jewel. I'm going to play some more....I find it odd I've written more than anyone else these past two days...SHOOT!!!! I got kicked off again, well I'm just going to get offline...stupid modem!!!

Shit, I'm still brooding....but it's not brooding because I just need to say these things. Probably I'll regeret having said them but they need to be said. Though since I've been a slacker loser no one reads my pita anymore or emails me you guys won't read this, that's my own faul utterly completely, I own up to being a terrible friend in that respect, and in the fact that if I said anything to you guys personally I'd start crying so I'm a chicken...yes I write it on my pita. Well here goes. I'd been thinking about whether there was going to be a New Year's party all week, we had so much fun on July 4th I figured there would be. No, I didn't email anyone to ask and I should've but I checked pitas and my email and assumed no, so that afternoon I went shopping with my mom for food and then to someone's house. A week before I had told Kristin that I had plans because I thought you all were going to do something, thankfully Kristin called that afternoon to ask if I was still busy and I said I wasn't, 'cause I wasn't going to call her at the last minute. It was fun seriously, me Kristin, Carolyn, and Ambreen had a blast. This past year you have included me in almost everything and you have no idea, I mean no idea what that has meant to me. For 15 years I was Stefanie the dependable, the one who wouldn't mind if she was the last to know, the last to be picked, the one left out, the one forgotten, and I wouldn't. Okay, I would but I would tell people it didn't because I felt it didn't matter, everyone else had fun and I was left out...so what. After 15 years of being forgotten and left out I was just sick and tired of it. I love you guys more than anything in the world, you're not only my friends but my sisters, you're family and I would not recover if I lost any of you and this year I have been not the best friend. I apologize for not calling or emailing anyone, that is my fault, and I probably won't this week eventhough I said I would...god why do I actually sometimes like sitting by myself brooding? This past year I have been apathetic, pathetic, and selfish wanting only to sit home alone reading, watching tv, and living in my own little worlds. I'm sorry if I've hurt anyone's feelings by typing this, but I have to get things off my chest to more people than Kristin, Lil. and my mom. How are you all supposed to know how I feel if I don't tell you? I blame no one, mostly myself really cause if I had called or mailed none of this would have happened *sigh*, but I just had to say this. I feel better know *weight lifted*. I love you all.
Point of discussion though, how come in vampire movies men can usually resist while women are just overcome with sex and desire unable to resist their lure? I'm watching one and just thought of that....pretty much a random thought...*sigh*
I want a vampire boyfriend!!!!!!*shakes fist at sky*

Labyrinth comes on next....still pissed off though.

Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end
You kept everything inside and eventhough you tried it all fell apart
I put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
And lose it all
It doesn't even matter....
-Linkin Park

When along the way did apathy come? Sometimes I just want to call my cousin go get drunk, stoned, and screw some random person because it doesn't matter. Right now I'd rather be apart of the books I'm reading than in my life. Its good, but, theres just so much I want and I'm disappointing everyone even myself...I guess its a new year and I can start over...how many times have I said that...

F@#! this. I was having a good day, shit. You think everything is going fine and then *wham* here lets just F UP stefanie's life and make it unbearable and horrible and depressing, sometimes I wonder why I just didn't kill myself years ago when I wanted to....I WAS happy becouase I am watching The Dark Crystal right now and I love that movie, but NOOOOOO. What's the use I don't like the direction my life is going and PITA.com is &*%$#(@ up....shit. Oh, and I'm PMSing so in addition I'm near tears....what a great way to start off the new year...fkcu....